man after God's heart

For a while now I've been wondering and questioning how "David" could be called "a man afterGods own heart." I think I have now come to the reason. While indeed he did sin. Who doesn't? He committed adultery, had some killed on purpose and did other things. But I think he was considered to be a man after God's own heart because of the fact that he repented of his sin. Showed true sorrow for his sin and turned from his ways. I think when we sin which we often times do in order to be called the same we need to show true sorrow for out sin and show that we are going to turn from that sin and not repeat it. if we do then repent and be truly sorry for it. one of the things that will help keep us from sin and I am not saying make us perfect because we'll mess up. that is do what the apostle Paul commanded in 2 Corinthians 10. where he says for us to "take very thought captive and make it subject to the obedience of Jesus Christ" this is easier said then done I realize. but David did it and look what is said of him. we as Christians are to often times quick to act or react to situations. we don't think and then often times sin as a result of our action. if we slow down think and listen to the Holy Spirit more often then well things may be different in our lives. God does speak to us today like or simular to how he spoke to the disciples of old. case in point I was living in Omaha and was spending time in prayer and reading my Bible and was really seeking God to heal me of my Neurofibromatosis, blindness and my diabetes and I stopped speaking in prayer, shut off my worship music closed my Bible and heard a voice a clear as one hears another speak to them. say "daniel do you want me to heal you because you want it or are you willing to wait and le me have my plan work in you and move forward that way." I was stunned this hadn't happened to me before and I'll admit I didn't know how quite to respond. I said Lord you know my thoughts I really am not sure. I then went in my apartment and spoke to my Catholic roommate and told him what had just happened. He asked me "how did you respond" I told him I don't know." well to make a long story short I chose to allow the Lord to have his way and wait. while it would be awesome to be healed of all this the Lord has a reason for it all and he will reveal his plan slowly and surely and in his time. taking every thought captive is a challenge and I have failed many times but the more I practice it the more close I start to feel I am getting to the Lord and that is important. I ask you my readers to now keep me in big time prayer for a "job of course" but as of this week I am now heading up a prayer ministery at church. I am going to see that we have myself to start and if others will step up will be praying during both services in the moring. the entire service covered in prayer. got the idea from the book "fresh wind fresh fire" I read this book about 6 years ago. well recently the Lord brought it to my mind. I presented the idea to my pastor and this morning he had be stand before the church and he told of the plan. come to find out this is something he was wanting to see happen. this ministery will be in place to pray during both services and if some one needs prayer during or after then the team will pray with th people. the Lord laid on my heart that many of his people who claim to be called by his name take prayer to lightly. it is indeed our mightiest weapon we have against Satan. it is going to be tough and a huge responsiblity but the Lord will guide direct and see it happen.

prayer

I've been thinking olately. I realze that some of yu reading this are saying "oh know!" "duck and cover!" settle down. I'veen thinking on the issue of prayer. How many of us sometimes take it for granit and some christians don't even take it serious enough.

First of all what is prayer? Well it is simplely talking with our Father in heaven. That's right I said "talking with" not talking to. many churches say it is talking to God. Well when you talk "to" someone you don't expect an answer or reply of any type. you are just talking. Well when we pray we are expecting an answer to our request and needs and issues. When you talk with someone you expect the same thing.

how should one pray? well there isn't any magic formula to prayer. You don't have to say magic words or pray formal. Just simplely be yourself and tell our Lord what is troubling you. Be upfront and honest. He knows the situtation anyway so you won't shock him or surprise him or catch him off guard. But telling him and talking with him like this helps you get it off your chest and you are taking thestp and acknowledging that you need help. that is the first step any resolution. you can pray standing, sitting laying onyour stomach, laying on your back sitting on your knees standing on one foot. however you are most comfortable. you can even pray while driving. one would say you can't because you needs your eyes open to drive. I say where in scripture does it say you have to close your eyes to pray. unstanderabely keeping your eyes closed keeps you from being distracted but that is all it does. you don't even have to bow your head when you pray. we get off to much as christians and to try and formalize how one has to pray. scripture just tells us to pray. it doesn't give a formal formula as to the position that is best.

how should I pray? as I stted before it doesn't matter when Jesus taught his disciples he gave them a model we need to say "our father" that is simplely address the Lord direct your statement like when you are talking with your kids or wife you state their name so they know who is being spoken to. acknowledge where he is this is to remember the our Father is in Heaven and then the rest is pretty basic.

if more of us christians took prayer serious then we would see changes happen. when you tell someone you are going to pray do it. don't just say you will. to many of say" I will be praying for you" and how many of us will admit that we actual follow through. and when you pray do it from the heart. don't just say the words to make yourself look good but mean what you pray and be serious. treat it as if you are talking with "your best friend" afterall Jesus is our best friend and guide. we expect others to respect us us when the talk with us let's get to respecting our Father in heaven when we pray and watch and see what happens. let's get old mr. ugly on the run. stop fighting each other over stupid stuff and unite together in prayer and set the world on fire and watch the Lord work wonders. prayer is easy. but it is a challenge because we do have distractions but always take time out to pray and when you say will pray do it otherwise keep your mouth shut and don't promise something you have no intent on doing at all.

til next time.

anger sin?

Well this past Sunday I was reading Ephesians and as I was reading I thought about anger. I started to think that it is a sin to be angry. But the thought then occured to me that it is not a sin. After all Jesus got angry and drove out the people in the temple that were defiling it. Some would say well he had the right he was Jesus and the Son of God. But it it is different for us. I would ask How? We are to be like Christ so if Christ was permitted to show anger then why not us. Ephesians 4 verses 26-27 tell us "be angry and sin not" "don't let the sun go down on your anger." so it is decided it is alright for a Christian to be angry provided they do not sin in anger. now one will ask if they do is it forgiven? yes it is. How long is one permitted to be angry? not long. Epjhesians says "don't let the sun go down on your anger." so not even 24 hours should go by and we hold our anger. it is destructive and hurts and not to mention makes everyone miserable even the one who holds the anger. in fact the person who did the wrong in the first place has gone on and has forgotten that they did what they did and it is only ruining us if we hold on to the anger. we need to deal with it as quick as possible and put it to rest and allow God to finish what we can't do. and I will say this no one make you angry or sad or anything. you choose those emotions. yes you choose how you feel. while there are circumstances that will encourage us to choose one emotion over another it is our decision in the end and ours alone. So allow yourself to be angry and deal with it. just don't let your anger boil and stay burning up. we are to love one another and treat others with love and respect and do as Christ would. i know it is difficult. but remember life is a challenge and without these challenges we wouldn't grow nd if we don't gorw then life becomes boring and dull. what doesn't kill us makes us stronger in the end. so don't feel regret or sad if you get or have gotten angry it is alright. but be sure to take care of the issue or get help with the issue and then leave it in the past and move forward. and remember it is never to late to say those 2 hard words "i'm sorry." or if someone says those to you "your forgiven" remember to forgive someone for their mistakes and errors in judgment and pray most importantly. until next time May the Lord Bless you and keep you and may his face always shine on you and may he give you his peace.

The Bite

Well as many of you my faithful readers know, I've had an on going journey to get some bottom teeth. Well the journey now has come to an end. I met with an oral surgeon here locally who was willing to do the surgery free for the most part. He was only going to charge for the material and hardware. The teeth were going to be free as well. IWhen I met with him he saw a couple of things on my teeth xray that were a concern. As a result he had me go in for a ct scan. I did this. Then a week later he called me in for an appointment to go over the results. The results were not what I wanted to hear. It is a no go for the teeth. I have to many soft pockets in my mouth. These are probably stemming from my Neurofibromatosis. There is no definete for sure answer to say that they won't grow more. The posts need hard bone to be secure. So now I must endure my life with only upper teeth. Am I able? Of course! I am able to handle this. Do I like it? No!!! But that is life and I will move forward. Were I a man who was money hungry I would find a lawyer and sue Grand Valley Dental for not investigating for fully before removing my few bottom teeth. But I am not a man who is that hungry. And even if I did do that what would it do? If you said "nothing" you are right. So I will move forward. The Lord has a plan in it and will make it known. I just need to trust him and move ahead. I have 2 choices here. I can sit and cry and complain and groan and play the pity me, or I can choose to be a victor and say, "it is done and I have to deal with it and choose to stand up and move ahead. For those of you who know me well you know what I've chosen. For those who don't well I have chosen to move ahead and take life as it comes and see where my road leads. It ay be a bumpy ride still but I will buckle in and enjoy.

Wake Up!!! and Dream!!!

That's right wake up!!!! and dream. you will say "Daniel that is kind of difficult isn't it?" I say a big fat resounding NO!!! Because we all have a dream that is near and ear to us and ours alone. We all have dreams for our family and those dreams we strive to succeed to make happen. But how many of us actually go after our own dream. I say to you that you have a dream burning in your heart that is waiting to come forth and be realized. It is no one eleses dream but yours and yours alone. It is a God given desire and dream. You may say "I have a dream that my kids... or my dream is that we be out of debt." these are awesome dreams but they are not yours actually. Some of you may have a dream to be a writer or singer or maybe even like myself a dream to be a well knwon public speaker. These are your dreams and it is time to wake up and dream. Go after it. You may say how? well simple first write it out in print or braille some way for you to see it in writing. voice it to others. next put the writen statement in anenvelope and ceal it shut and do it before witnesses. This is symbolic way saying it is a done deal. then have another copy that you can look at on a regulary basis. Look at it every day. Next you'll need to state put action behind the words. Some of the things you can do are: talk to others who have achieved in the area you wish to to achieve your dream. watch movies based on your dream. for those of you who have good sight buy or get pictures of your dream. look at those pictures. if you are a totally blind individual no problem get models of your dream. most important don't give up. no matter how bad it gets you will make it. surround yourself with others who will help push you forward. look for opportunities to see your dream. if it is a new car then look at them in the car lot for a blind person who wants a car he or she can purchase models to look at and take a friend to the dealer ship and ride in said car. The car sales person may say "you are a little young to want something like this!" say to him in return "it doesn't take age it takes money!" he will back down right quick. above all else pray and pray and pray over and over about your dream ask the Lord for guidance and tohelp keep your eyes open. we all have dreams in fact scripture says: "Without a dream the people perish." So wake up dream go for it. to to silence all the doubters and shouters and nay sayers and go for it. I believe in you and I know it is possible. Matthew 1 37 says "with God nothing is impossible" and Philipians 4 13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me." you already have the strength to go for and achieve your dream. what are you waiting for? for forth and dream! and I will one day see you at the top.

race day

 
Well as many of you know I've been raising funds for nf inc. well yesterday was racing day day. it was the 25k. you can still go to my website and make a donation if you wish. I rode mostly in the stroller you see with the people you see they were my team. it was a great day and except for the rain fun was had by all. I will do it again if i get the opportunity

what others think

Why worry about what others think? I ask you my readers this serious question. Especially those who profess to know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. Why do we often times get caught in worrying what others: "will say" "will think" "will do" STOP!!! we shouldn't do that. First of all to worry is sin. Scripture says in Philipians 4 that "be anexous for "owrry" about nothing..." So why worry. Worry only causes us to get frustrated upset and not to mention over time will cause a number of health issues. The only thing that should concern us is is: "what will the Lord think about how I am speaking or what I am saying and what will the Lord think about my dress or if I go to this or that. He is and should be our final authority. after all it hs the Lord who'll we have to answer in the end anyway. What others think shouldn't matter squat. it is great to get imput but let the Holy Spirit be your guide and consult God's word then make a decision. others oppinion will change like the weather pending on their mood at the time and a number of influences that may be forcing or seemingly forcing them to react or choose to do xyz. Now you may say "do youpractice this?" I tell you I do and have for a little bit but do sometimes drop the ball. but I think if we live like this we will be happier for the most part may possibely loose some friends but if we loose them they were not really our friend to begin with. because a friend will not chide you for your decision. they don't agree always and shouldn't always agree but if they know that you've prayed over it and are striving to live a life that honors your Lord then they will respect you and who knows maybe by living like this what impact you will have for the cause of Christ. This doesn't mean just say whatever you will. you should always and I mean aaaaalllllllaaaaaaays think before you speak and or act. the Lord gave us 2 ears one mouth so we are to listen twice as much as we speak. like I said imput from family and friends is all good and I am not saying don't seek their imput but don't base your decision on "if i do..." "what will so and so think or say." the mind in us should also be "the mind of Christ" Paul exhorts us this in 2 corinthians. anyway may you all have a blessed day and don't be afraid to step out and do. so what if you step on a toe or two. toes will heal and you will survive so be bold be strong and be courageous but above all do it with Love and prayer and with the Lord's guidance.

The Call!

I am calling any of my friends and or family for help. As many of you know I am doing the River Bank Run this year. I am doing it to raise money to find a cure for Neurofibromatosis. I do have this and it has been an interesting life with it but not disabling. I have chosen to be a victor. anyway it is a 25k race. I am not running but walking and will be riding in a cart for some of it. but am asking for help with raising funds. if you can or know someone who can please visit my fund raising page and help. Any amount is appreciated. whether it be $1.00 or $1,000. every little bit helps and it is for a good cause. I know I've posted about before but so far I have raise $660. it is amazing. please!!! help!!! if you can if you can't I understand but appreciate you passing this on if you can. if you can't then please pray.
go to: http://www.firstgiving.com/danielstrube
there you'll see a picture of me both before andn after my surgeries that I've had.

Who! Am! I!

Who am I? I ama saint that once and a while sins. You heard me right. I did not say that I am a sinner. God sees me as a saint and one without sin. because he looks at me through His son Jesus. I know you will say I am not a saint. I am just a sinner saved by grace. I say that is good to recognize that you have been saved by grace. that may be true. however if you are in Christ you are a new creature. The old things have past away and all has become new. In fact the apostle Paul refered to those who are believers as saints. see any of his epistles and they were addressed to the saints. he isn't the only one. Luke throughout Acts refered to the Christians as "saints" as he was writing about Paul's journeys he stated, "paul visited the saints" now when I say that I am a saint I am not saying that I am perfect. I am a saint that once and a while sins. I am thankful that I am new in Christ and know this for sure that he Loves me and you and he wants us to live a life that pleases him. He does forgive us when we mess up and fall and picks us up and brushes the junk off and says "lets move on" It doesn't matter what we have or will do. in fact if you are reading this first time and don't know Him it is simple. he will forgive you to for any and all things you've ever done. all you need to do is simple. 1 admit you need him that you are a sinner. 2 believe that Jesus died on the cross, was buried and rose again. 3 confess this and ask him to come in your heart. then find yourself a Bible and a good church and learn more about him. He won't turn you away on any count. the only time it is to late to make this decision is when you've died. so don't delay make the decision and let's move forward. if you want someone to talk to about it let me know I am willing. but God is always there anytime day or night and there is no specific way you have to pray just pray what is on your heart knowing the fact he hears you and is listening and will help. I don't know why for years we've taught we are just sinners saved by grace when the Bible is clear that we are saints. I've been told it is so we can identify with those who don't know him. well we are to be set apart different so why identify or say we are just like someone who doesn't know Christ. we are children of the King! let's act like it and bring others into the family!

victum or victor

We have many choices in life. Aside from choosing whether or not to accept Christ as ones savior there is two choices that one has to make. These are very important and will make a difference in how life goes. You need to choose to be either a victum or a victor. either one you choose is your choice and no one can force you to do he other. A victum says "I can't and it is not possible" and "pity me everyone is against me and I'll never make it" a victor says: "I can! it is possible! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" A victor says it is possible no matter how bad it gets because he or she knows that one way or another they'll make it. if they fall they get up up and brush off and move forward. a victum falls and stays down and cries. I know life is a challenge Christ told us it wuold be so. Your attitude is your decision no one can make you angry or upset or happy. you choose your attitude. it is alright to cry and be upset. allow yourself the experience of the emotion then choose what you are going to do. a victum would stay depressed and refuse to change a victor will allow a cry then say let's move forward. a victor knows tat some things are not possible because lack of ability but they allow themself to experience and try to see if they have said ability and if not then they find a way to get it done by some means. a victum doesn't even try they just say "no" and refuse to step out. So I ask you today! are you going to choose to be a victum or a victor! I choose to be a victor and choose to be an eagle and soar to new heights. Hoping someone will join me in the experience.

christian essentials concluded (food prayer)

I am sorry for not post the final segment but here it is.


Another essential for christians is food. Now you may say food? Yes food! As physical food is needed for the body for it to function properly so also is spiritual food. There are 2 kinds of food. Angel food! and Devils food. How do you know the difference? you get real familar with the cook boook. The Bible. It will give you real hardcore angel food. devil food is anything contray to angel food. let me tell you a teller at a bank knows a fake dollar from the real one. How? because they study the real stuff so often and long and hard and fast that when the fake comes they know it with a snap of a finger. The last essential is not last because of last importance it is actually very important. Prayer! prayer is simplely put communicating with God. as you communicate with your friends family or co-workers so you communicate with God. There is no style or specific way to speak. just say what you feel and what is on your heart. no position is required. you can stand, sit hit your knees or anything. It is vital because even though God knows all and sees all he wants us to know and tell him what we feel that way he can help us make the change you need.

christian essentials "fellowship

here is the next part sorry it has taken a while. Fellow toastmasters another key to christianity is: fellowship. I spell fellowship "church" you will probably say tome church isn't perfect of course it isn't because it is filled with people like you and me. We are commanded in the Bible to not forsake to assemble with other believers. It is when we do this we grow. We get encouraged and it is a safe place to get a kick in the pants to get us moving where we should be. it is outside of the church that we are not encouraged to serve and worship our Lord and it is outside the gathering that we often get knocked down. so when we fellowship we can bet our batteries recharged and get moving again. Now when I speak of church i am not necessarily speaking of a building like we meet in here for toastmasters. it is good. however but you can fellow with other believers anytime and anywhere. it doesn't have be for one our or 2 and it doesn't have to be a large group. we are told in scripture that "whereever two or three are gathered in my name I am there" so let's get getting together to encourage love and motivate one another. yes I know sometimes whate we hear hurts but it is better to get the truth on how we should be from a fellow believer then a nonbeliever who'll just say what they think we want to hear.....

stayed tuned for the next. part coming soon.

qchristian essentials part 2 "faith"

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen according to the bible. now many of you toastmasters and guests who came in tonight had a lot of faith. you may say Daniel how? I say because you sat down in the chair. you didn't examine it research the make and question ther maker of it you ust sat done believing that it would support you and it did. Faith is much the same thing it is a belief that Lord will do what he says he will do. you may say "daniel it is easy for you your blind" I say no. it is more difficult when you can't see physically what is about to happen. but one has faith the the person he or she is with isn't going to cause problems. it doesn't take a lot of faith for a christian to survive. it takes about the size uf a mustard seed. that is small and that is all that is required. I don't buy into this "it didn't hapen because you didn't have enough faith" it is going to happen if the Lord wants it to happen. Now onto the next essential....

stay tuned for the next part. food. again a reminder this taken fro m a speech i've done for toastmasters

christian essentials

This is going to be broken down into four or five parts. This froma speech I did for Toastmasters a while by this title.
There are many things in a christian that one possibely will call essential. However in my oppinion it boils down to 4 main points. These are essential and vital to EVERY!!! christians walk and life. Without these 4 coponents nothing else is possible. So I am taking you my friends to "christian boot camp" here you will learn these essentials and hopefully be able to move forward. These essentials are:
1. faith
2. fellowship
3. food
4. prayer.
while i know they seem very basic and one doesn't think of them as essential but they are.

stay tuned bloggers part 2 will deal with faith and what I said in the speech.

finding beauty

We often seem to over look beauty in many things. We often think of beauty in flowers or the way a person looks. Beauty can be found in many forms and styles. Like the way a person smiles or they way they say something. Also in the way something is writen. But often we refuse to look at those people who on the outside appear shabby and ugly. But their inner beauty is awesome. It is these types of people that often surprise us. We should look for beauty in all things. After all the Lord created all things and Solomn even said He makes all things beautiful in his time. So the next time you see something unordinary or unusual before you pass judgment on it and call it ugly. Think and see or dig deeper for the inner beauty tat may be waiting to be tapped. You never know. Yes beauty is something simple and coyuld be "hello" that may be beautiful to someone to hear because they probably don't get to many people even giving them the time of day. Beauty isnt the same for everyone I realize that but all things are beautiful and it is not right for anyone to criticize anyone for calling something beautiful. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder remember that but always remember all is beautiful and thank God for the beauty.

victum or victor

Many of us face different decisions throughout our days. Some of these decisions are easy and some difficult. Some we may not see results from for a long time. But the bottom line is you can choose "to be a victum" or "b a victor" it is your choice and only you can make that decision. choosing to be a victor means stepping up and doing what needs to be done. a victor sees each difficulty as a chance to grow and become stronger. a victum sees each difficulty and a means of persecution and attack and the victum runs and tries to hide their face from the challenge. a victor says "I can do it and if I can't I can find a way to get it done" a victum ays "why is everyone picking on me... I cant' I can't it is to difficult. get someone else and leave me alone" now is every obstacle easy no is the victor always full of smiles "no" but he is continually looking for ways to move forward and learn from each challenge. the victum looks to hide and stay stuck on stupid. yu can say "pity poor me i'll never get through it" or you can say "let's go with the Lord's help one way or another we will get through it." i've always said what doesn't kill one makes one stronger. attitude is a decision no akes you"angry sad or happy" yo choose how ou'll respond and the way you respond wil have a impact on the outcome.

raising funds

I wanted to come in here and let everyone know of a fund raiser that I am involved with. As many of you my faithful readers know I have Neurofibromatosis "nf" well I have been asked to participate in a fun run walk this year. it is the River Bank Run/walk. it is a long race but well worht it. I am raising funds for nf to find a cure. you can donae to my cause by visiting my website at: http://www.firstgiving.com/danielstrube. any amount is appreciated. will keep everyone posted as to how I do. it is May 9, 2009. thanks in advance.

prayers

I wasjust thinking about prayer. it is a weapon that is mighty. but it is one that we as christians sometimes misues or use selfishly and sometimes don't use enough. grab a cup of coffee this going to be a bit long probably. One thing i've noticed with christians today and I have been guilty of this myself: is that we tell a person "I'll pray for you about...." then how often do we actually follow through. we stay with it until we see results or do we not do it. just say we will because we feel obligated. that to me is insulting promising to pray and not following through. but with our own personal prayer life when we pra what is our motive. are motivated by desire to see the Lord's will or do we ant our own selfish desire. i'll admit sometimes I pray selfishly but the Lord knows my heart. I think though the best answers to prayer are those "unanswered" we should always be praying and stick with it until we see results of some sort or another. let me step back a moment and define prayer: prayer is simplely "talking with our Father" yes I said "with" not "to" but "with" we are talking with our father and in doing so need to show the respect he deserves and when we pray mean what we pray and not just pray because we feel obligated. and when the Lord brings someone to mind out of the blue during the day. pray for them you never know what they are going through at that moment it may be needed. i've found this true. in fact when speaking with a friend of mine a while back she was telling me how she got through a situation that didn't seem like she would. I asked about what time and she told me "x" time and i was caused to remember that was about the time I was paying for that person. prayer works. it may seem like it doesn't sometimes and it seems like we pray forevetr for something before we get the answer or wake up and see the answer but God does answer in "His time!" not ours. so be quick to pray it is powerful but be careful not to promise to pray for someone about something unless you intend fully to follow through. we should always pray Paul tells us "pray without ceasing" this means always keep the lines of communication open and be ready to listen. you may or may not like the answer but accept it and move forward and let the Lord work.

ruthann part 2

Well let's continue. I left with Andi and headed back to her apartment. before that we told Jennifer we'd be back in the morning. on the way home stopped through the drive through for burger king. when we arrived at the appartment we told Sam Andi's husband about the day. i went to the back bed room. I think i was a sleep before my head even hit the pillow. The next day was spent at the hospital. I went to the nursery to see Ruthann and as I was bending over the crib she bopped me in the nose. it was as if she was saying ok dad pick me up already. so I did. we then brought her to mom "jennifer" during that day we had a few visitors come into see us. then that night I returned back to the apartment with andi. Sunday morning woke up and headed with sam and andi for church. I went before the church and anounced about Ruthann's birth. On the way to the hospitalafter church Jennifer called me on the cell phone and said Ruthann had a case of Jondis. I hope i spelled that correct. I hung up and paniced. Was assured by andi and the person giving us a ride not to worry. it is common. but i still was concerned. after all i was a new dad. anyway spent the day at the hospital and this time stayed the night. spent most of monday there and head back to the apartment to make sure all was ready for Ruthann's arrival home. while there I opend a tun of gifts. you see what I didn't mention was Saturday was supposed to be a baby shower at the church for Jennifer and at my work they were going to have a shower ofsorts. both of course didn't happen. Now what i didn't mention. Before Ruthann was born I wasn't sure if I wanted to be in the room during her delivery. but after a lot of thinking and talking with Sam i chose to. I in fact was even going to cut the cord. but that didn't happen due to the fact we had Ruthann via c-section. Now she is 7 years old and has grown to know the Lord as her savior and is awesome. that's my story and i'm sticking to it.

ruthann

As many of you know today is Ruthann's birthday. she is now 7 years old today. But I am sure tht not al of youare knowedgeable about the story of her birth. well here it goes: It was April of 2001 when I got the news that my wife was pregnant. I was both excited and scared as to what was going to happen. I remember when i got the news we were talking with someone aboutgetting a voucher for low income housing. Jennifer "now x" said she had taken a home check test. we soon after went and saw the doctor to know for sure. Well the doctor confirmed it. the next several months were spent getting ready. many appointments and searching for an apartment. June of that year we got news from a friend of Jennifer's mom that her mom was in the hospital and not expected to survive. Jennifer then took a bus trip to see her mom. I stayed behind and worked. Well Jennifer came back and not long after that we got the phone call that he mom had passed on. she died from bone cancer. We went to the funerial. got back and a few months got an apartment. now you have the back ground now for the day of er birth. I woke up at 4:30 in the morning as usual. got ready for work. this was going to be my last day was going to take time off for leave for Ruthann's birth. I arrived t work and on the way in my friend and I were talking and he joked and said she might be born today! I stated no way she wasn't due for about another week. Got in and grabed a coffee and snack from the lunch room. I then called Jennifer to tell her i arrived safe. this wa normal. Sh advised she would probably need to change the sheets. my first thought was "why were you sick?" she said no I think my water broke. she said to call her back in about 10 minutes. I went to my preshift meeting and my supervisor told me i wouldn't be staying. I said we don't know she said she had had 3 kids and knows. well we had the meeting. I went and made the call. came back told my supervisor i was leaving. threw my shoes in my back pack threw on my boots. a co-worker came and offered me a ride. I stuttered and said i had a ride. another supervisor laughed and said not nervous are we? i stuttered and said no. we arrived at the hospital at about7:30 in the morning and sure enough things were on target. she was about 2 or 3 centimeters dialeted. well the hours wore on and on. finally the time came. Andi "jennifer's adopted sister" and i staqrted the encouraging her to push. this was around 8:30 or so in the evening. Well they decided they would have to do a c section. I was tossed scrubs and got hurriedly in them and Andi and I raced to follow. at 9:04 that evening Ruthann was born. she was 8 pounds 6.4 ounces and 20 and a quarter inches long and her head was 14 and 3 quarter inches. while in the nursery my sugar started to drop and i got help. anyway more to come at another time this already gettng long. stay tuned for a part 2.